A friend tells me that they understand that I should not stop spreading Christianity. They say I am kind and that I donít try to force it on people, as well as being open minded even when people clown on me. There are cruel people that will want to hurt me physically or emotionally for many different reasons.

 

Thus here is my response

 

Thank you, I understand as well. Like, for my mother, she tells me Iím her only son, which is true. It would be horrible for her to lose her only son. And itís hard because at what point does me spreading the Gospel essentially become sacrificing myself to the demons? Like, I donít want to stop. I remember there was a time where I did not spread Christianity as much as I do now, and the evil spirits would still cause harm to my family and I. Maybe not as intensely as this, but they were still there. Even when I was an atheist, those evil spirits still almost made me kill myself. Itís like theyíre sheer presence along is enough to cause harm.

 

So, I donít trust any word from the devils. If I stop telling people about Christ, what guarantee is there that they will stop attacking my family? Itís like a hostage situation, spiritually speaking, and you have a demon holding someone at gun point. If I go along with their demands, how can I trust their promise? When all demons are like their father, the devil, who is a liar. What if I stop telling people about Jesus and they still do spiritual harm? At least by soulwinning Iím sacrificing myself for something spiritually worth it. But if I stop, then for me, whatís the point? Iím just getting attacked for nothing. So maybe thatís where my motivations lie in evangelising others, to get back at those devils for the spiritual harm they caused me in the past. To save others from going through what I went through, hopefully.

 

```John 8:44 You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your fatherís desires. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies. ```

 

And thank you very much for your kind words my friend. Like an oasis in the desert so to speak. I feel physically tired now by everything going on, but your message renews my strength so to speak. All those cruel people will eventually learn love by faith in the Lord Christ luckily. So I see them as misunderstood, a lot of them donít even know whatís going on, theyíre just, put into this Earth and suddenly placed with all these societal expectations. I see them as future brothers and sisters in Christs who are simply confused. I used to be unaware too after all.

 

```Matthew 6:21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. ```

 

Yes, for me as well, this friendship is the treasure. Many physical things will pass away, but this kindness will be forever.

 

Yeah, for the ďstrange on the InternetĒ part, those are from her, my motherís word. But for me, I see you as so much more than that. Iíve talked to you more than Iíve talked to some people that I know in real life. For me, our friendship is so much more than that. And I thank you deeply for the prayers during these difficult times. Maybe Iím like Job right now, being tested? I donít know. But what I do know is thereís always sunlight after the storm and eventually all will be well. Iím just another experiment for the evil spirits so they too will eventually learn to love, to believe in God, thatís why I think the Lord allows this to happen. I just got an email yesterday from my friend about the government funds being transferred and Iíll be meeting them on Monday coming up about it so thatís something good at least.

 

```Romans 5:5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. ```