Yes. The type of OCD I've suffered from for years is scrupulosity. My obsession of course manifested into the form of my website.
Extremely extremely relatable. I noticed around 2017 that I would obsessively search for Bible websites online. And I would try and stop myself. I actually tried to censor Christianity. In my word documents, I would use a black highlighter to literally cover certain words. (I donít do this nowÖ because I use dark theme which inverts the colors lol).
ďChristianityĒ was even a trigger word for me. Because Iíd have a lingering thought, then search it up, then the whole days gone and Iíve barely eaten, barely slept.
What has personally helped me isÖ
1) Havening Technique. Imagine the trauma, but then turn your head all the way left, right, your eyes, left and right, looking up and down, with your head too. Biologically, us humans have evolved to remember negative events more. If we got attacked by a tiger in a bush, weíre going to be naturally afraid of bushes. But, when we check the bush and realize a tigerís not there, our fears are remedied. Same thing with mental conflict. By thinking of the danger and then having your brain realize the dangers not there, maybe it can help???
2) Relaxing physical sensations that help you escape the mental prison your mind can create. Anime ASMR, White Noise, relaxing lofi music, preferably with headphones. Feeling a soft material, like my blankie. Holding a really cold ice pack, or letting my hands soak in really hot running water.
3) Imagine your own younger self, who was struggling in the past, what would you say to you? For me, it would be hugging myself as a child. Visualize you acting as a therapist for you, because you understand you more than other people. Be your own best friend. Do not believe all intrusive thoughts. Be kind to yourself. Donít worry about trying to be ďproductiveĒ every day, the fact that you exist and you survived another day is an achievement in and of itself worth celebrating over. :D
4) Aggressive exercise to let out my frustrations while listening to intense music. Sprinting as fast as I can, like Iím running away from my OCD. Punching the air very quickly, like Iím fighting back against my OCD. Opening my mouth really loud like Iím screaming against my OCD but no sound comes out.
It really sucks that other people mess up our lives and we're forced to pick up the peaces, put ourselves together, just because of the horrible actions of other people. We're forced to mature quickly, to grow up too fast. We miss out on a genuine loving childhood because we have to be our own therapists. It really really sucks......
And as well, for me the doctrine of faith alone has helped me. Because it shows me that none of my own works do the saving, but rather, itís faith alone that comes from Christ that supports me.
Ephesians 2:8-9 For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.
The doctrine of once saved always saved also helps me in this regard, telling me that, no matter what I do or how I mess up, the LORD will always uphold and protect me, through the Holy Spirit inside of me.
John 10:28 I give them eternal life, and they will never perish, and no one will snatch them out of my hand.
The doctrine of the Trinity reassures me, telling me that the Holy Ghost inside of me, protecting me, is God, who can stop Him? Who can stop Jesus who died for our sins, for He is God! Who can stop the Father from saving all of creation, for He is God.
John 10:30 I and the Father are one.Ē
Universal Reconciliation has therefore given me peace, knowing that I wonít have to live with survivors guilt knowing that people I know are permanently tortured or permanently destroyed forever, that all shall have faith alone in Christ, God and gain permanent salvation.
Heb. 1:2 God appointed Jesus "heir of ALL THINGS, and through whom He made the universe."
Thus, Preterism has given me comfort knowing that all the eschatological requirements necessary to secure a believerís salvation has already happened in 70 AD. We arenít stuck waiting for an apocalypse or biblical end times event to know that we can be happy right here, right now.
Therefore, to my friends who are LGBTQ+, even to me who may be LGBTQ+, I donít really know, but I do know that itís not inherently sinful anymore than heterosexuality for example. Thereís no inherent biblical condemnation for the concept as a whole.
Romans 13:10 ESV Love does no wrong to a neighbor; therefore love is the fulfilling of the law.
Which has given me the joy of evangelism, because the people who told me these truths was a person participating in evangelism, telling me the good news of Jesus Christ and all of these facts. It reassures me, knowing that all shall eventually come to peace too.
John 1:9 "The true light that gives light to every man was coming into the world"
That is the reason for the 7 biblical truths my friends.
Exactly. For my OCD symptoms, my family speculates my father might have OCD, so it could have been passed on genetically to me. Because of religion, the OCD became scrupulosity. Otherwise, the OCD may have taken a different form like physical sanitation, symmetry, etc. Interestingly, I've known for years that I've had OCD, scrupulosity, but just found out a few days ago from my mom that I have autism. But the connection makes sense.