Was scrolling through Reddit on my phone today and found this post where u/IceAmbitious5274 is saying they’re going to commit suicide tonight. Been playing AQW for years since I was a kid and this is the first post I’ve ever seen of this nature on the subreddit. Praying for them.
[Posted that message on the Christian Universalist Discord server]
Here is a copy of the post start quote
7 hours ago
This will be my first post as well as my last post because I'm probably gonna kill myself after writing this.
As the title says, I'm planning on killing myself tonight by hanging myself in my garage. I already got a slip knot of a rope set up right on my lap. First I just wanna clarify that I'm aware this is a kind of a weird sub to be posting this on but it's kinda the only sub I know since I occasionally search help for … on here (never signed up until now).. either way I don't really care.. plus I like aqw, lol.
I really have nothing going on with my life and never really have. I have an alright job currently, working at amazon warehouse. I guess that's the only okay thing about my life. But other than that I have no one to talk to in my life. I live with a roommate but that's all we really are to each other, is roommates. I don't talk to him , he doesn't talk to me, all we do is try to get by. We don't share the same interests anyway. The friends I had grown up with are all mostly dead from either fentanyl overdose or gun violence. And my older brother, the only brother I have is incarcerated for life. I've tried so hard to live for them up until this point.. I hope they can forgive me because I know I have failed them once I end my own life. My beloved friends; Eduardo, Francisco, Anthony just to name some.. not a single one have lived past the age of 21 and I'm 22 now... I hope to see you guys embrace me with open arms once I finally see y'all. And I miss my older bro Xavier so much, he has a life sentence in a California prison and I will never see him outside of walls he's locked behind in. I … hate life and I always have. Growing up all over the ghettos of Sacramento CA, the East, Fruitridge, all the projects.. G Parkway, Oak Park, etc. We were very poor and our mom was the only parent in the household, dad died in a car crash when I was really young like 2 yrs old. All of my mom's boyfriends she would frequently bring through the house would always beat me and my bro very bad growing up. But anyways I would say that I was a good kid for the most part however I do have a juvenile record for some marijuana … when I was a young teen but other than that I stayed home. Growing up, my older bro was the only person I would mostly always hang out with when he wasn't out with his friends. Some points in my young life though, I didn't see him much because he was in and out of juvy from Sac County, Yolo County, Solano county, he was just always getting in trouble until he got sent away to CYA (California Youth Authority) at 15 with a 5 yr bid.. he maxed out, got released but he was only out for about a month before he did something really stupid that I won't mention for reasons I won't disclose, to land him a life term in adult prison. Funny enough, as much as he was outside in the streets like that, he was the first person to introduce me to aqw. This was in 2010 and I've been playing since then. And a pre-emptive apology if my writing seems to be all over the place, I'm just going on a whim here typing my thoughts in the moment and I could really give a … about proofreading. Point is, I miss my brother who's incarcerated. I miss my dead friends. I hate life and I have nothing going on in my life career wise or social wise. No girlfriend, no friends, … no one and nothing. I want and am going to kill myself.
Time is Sept 11 2023 11:40 AM
[A person implies that the OP should commit suicide in real life so I rebuke them]
Nah, screw off. There's a nonzero possibility it could be real, you really wanna bet someone's life on that?
[The same person implies it could be fake]
You can't say 100% it's just some copy pasta mate. Imagine thinking it was fake when it was real smh
4 hr. ago
Jesus loves you and he is the only way. The only friend that we really need close. God Bless you and dont do nothing to your life, cause you are a precious person. There always someone who loves you and need you! Again, Jesus is our only friend that we need! God bless you 🙌
Amen my friend, you're completely correct. Praying for OP right now, hope they can keep on going. God bless <3
56 min. ago
LOL. Not even gonna lie tho, I hate who bot and they deserve the same treatment as OP's brother frfr🙂
That's a seriously messed up mentality. Are you kidding me? A life sentence in prison just because a person uses a bot? Ridiculous.
Also don't bring in OP's brother into horrible statements like this, that's personal to OP.
[I bot in AQW in the background like when I’m studying Christian Universalism since I don’t have that much time that was before. I guess you can say I set up like a script or bot for Free Draw to prevent me from getting kicked so I can spread the Gospel of Christian Universalism. So there’s nothing wrong inherently with using bots.]
49 min. ago
Life sentence for the botters and painful death for the bot creators!
Hard disagree there mate. What you're suggesting is seriously messed up.
Too long not gonna read that.
Nothing wrong with the word count mate, OP's telling us his story
2 hr. ago
Those who suffer the most in life end up becoming the strongest and most admirable people…. You’re already there. I admire you for being able to get on a sub and spill your mind out to complete strangers.
Turn to God, the times we feel farthest away from him are the times when he is the closest in disguise… testing our faith.
Christ never promised us an easy life, in fact he told us “pick up your cross and follow me”
And this saying is a metaphor for the torment and pain he went through in his life to give us hope and redemption.
Don’t suffer in silence, consolidate with people and give to others and you’ll see these things reciprocated back in your life I promise
Psalm 30:5 NRSV Weeping may linger for the night, but joy comes with the morning.
No matter what, all our suffering's temporary. When's it going to end exactly? Who knows. But there's definitely a finish line.
2 hr. ago
I don't know why you'd post something like this on here. I read the post. I get it. I hope you're okay and still here, but you could've sent all this to somebody who could actually help you. Don't wanna … on the subreddit, but Reddit just isn't the place to post something as sensitive as this.
I mean, OP mentioned that they like AQW, so that's probably the reason why they posted this on here. I'm grateful that they were able to reach out on here at least, and glad to see other Reddit commenters posting support too.
8 hr. ago
So let me get this straight, you believe in god and … but you condone the use of botting AKA breaking the rules. That's not very christianlike if you ask me. 😐
Breaking manmade rules is not inherently sinful, as we see the Disciples broke human established laws where they were not allowed to spread the good news of Jesus Christ.
Acts 5:27-29 NRSVue
27 When they had brought them, they had them stand before the council. The high priest questioned them, 28 saying, “We gave you strict orders not to teach in this name, yet here you have filled Jerusalem with your teaching, and you are determined to bring this man’s blood on us.” 29 But Peter and the apostles answered, “We must obey God rather than any human authority.[c] 30
I have bot scripts set up in Roblox that allow me to spread Christian Universalism, the gospel that all shall believe in Christ and that all shall be permanently saved. I've been banned plenty of times, so I'm breaking the mods rules on there. But I use these bots to spread Christianity, so we can see that botting is not inherently sinful.
Someone who abandons the ToS will also abandon the scriptures, apostasy is habitual.
2 min. ago
You trying to say that AQW botting is in specifically mentioned in Scriptures? Don't be ridiculous XD.
But seriously, when a person believes in Christ they can never lose their salvation. The Holy Spirit is permanently sealed in me, my friend. OSAS is true.
As is written in Scripture
John 10:28 I give them eternal life, and they will never perish, and no one will snatch them out of my hand.
7 hr. ago
I checked his profile and he made his reddit account yesterday. I'm not going to disregard what he said, but I'm not buying it 100%.
Well, they definitely made this Reddit account to post this, but I don't think that completely confirms it true or false, like you mention.
[Also, yeah I bot in AQW, just like how I have bot scripts in Roblox Free Draw. Well, I bot in AQW for fun since I treat it as just my own single player experience. I don’t have unlimited free time you know, so I find it more fun as an idle game.]
[There was the infernalist that I was debating in the AQW Discord server and for me, I was able to learn more about end game content in AQW without having to sink dozens of IRL hours into grinding, clicking the same buttons over and over again, in order to reach it. Even though AQW is a game I play for fun, my knowledge of AQW allowed me to find that AQW Discord server and spread Christian Universalism in there. So for me personally, it was worth playing AQW as I was able to use my experience with the game to spread Christianity!]