[Do not trust humans, instead trust the Lord]

Psalm 118:8 It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man.

 

This is important piece of advice.

When looking for material for this “Youtube parody”, I looked through a bunch of Reddit posts only to see people hating other groups of people, people hating the way others act, all hate, etc.

[Micah 7:5 Put no trust in a neighbor; have no confidence in a friend; guard the doors of your mouth from her who lies in your arms;]

If I had trusted these people then I would have been emotionally hurt, but from the very beginning I knew that they had cruel intentions. I even try to relax by writing this but my mom/sister/aunt are yell fighting again. Hahahaha, they won’t be quiet. And I can’t even tell them to stop because they’d want to see an emotional reaction from me, though I never give it to them. Heh, maybe that’s why my Journal Entries are so erratic. Sometimes I’m typing in all capital letters to show anger or just normally to get melancholic.

[Jeremiah 17:5 Thus says the Lord: “Cursed is the man who trusts in man and makes flesh his strength, whose heart turns away from the Lord.]

I guess really the only person who I expect to comfort me is God. The Lord, because that’s pretty much the sensitive part of myself [yet He protects that part of me, through the Holy Spirit]. The other is God, since He created it all, He’s the only one who can fix it all. There was a time where, after discovering the true nature of Hell, I became irreligious [as in Jesus Christ is a relationship, not a religion. Faith alone in Christ Jesus saves. And all people will be saved, Christian Universalism], where while I still didn’t support the idea of Hell, thought we would just cease to exist when we died (AKA Annihilationism). Yet, I couldn’t enjoy my present life. Scrupulosity, OCD, perfectionism, shortness of breath, fears, phobias, paranoia and worse of all, my mom saying how I don’t have the right to be sad when there are so much poorer people in the world, and how she was able to do so well in school. After I became religious again [as in more religious focused, but I was still saved the whole time] with Universalism (everyone goes to heaven to be infinitely eternally equally happy forever), And what hurts even more is how I most certainly inherited my OCD traits from my parents’ genetics. Also, I’d label it as Christian Universalism, since Christianity is the religion [aka relationship with Jesus Christ] that appeals to me the most, however “wolves in sheep’s clothing” have corrupted it so much that I’m not even comfortable looking at it anymore. I search online and all I see are people’s hatred. And worse is when they give “advice”, since they assume the cause of my grief to be some nonsensical thing about a certain lifestyle or habit, instead of realizing the mankind’s inherently sinful nature that can only be redeemed through God alone. We’re all suffering here, so no one can truly help one another! While it may be sad that nothing we can do can save us, that no matter how much we help someone they’ll still suffer the same as someone who was never helped at all, but it comforts me, instead of worrying about how to fix it, God has already sorted it out. So, I just look at the Christianity parts that talk about hope, the truth that is Universalism and general Heaven verses, while at the same time limiting my obsession to seek out other people’s validation for my beliefs. [Eventually all people will believe in Christ Jesus with faith alone. Eventually, everyone will be saved and realize the truth of Christian Universalism]

[Psalm 118:9 It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in princes.]

Though do I hate my parents? No, I love them, just as I do with everyone else. In fact, I hate no one. Though I don’t blame them for that, everyone on Earth is doing things that are harmful. While I’m not saying mean things to people, at the same time I’m not particularly helping people either since I don’t keep people close due to my sensitivity. I just know we’ll all be infinitely equally eternally happy forever in Heaven since Hell/Annihilation doesn’t exist. It gives me life purpose, it’s the only thing worth living for. And this time, there’s no need to get obsessed with it. I’ll let God handle that.

I’ll never have to hear any shouting again. Nor will I have to bear any unnecessary guilt or get hurt by other people’s insensitive words. I’ll finally truly be infinitely eternally equally happy forever.

When we die, we’ll all be infinitely eternally equally happy forever.

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Haha. Don’t take this as my condoning suicide! Knowing how cruel this world is. Haha~ sorry if that sounded a bit morbid, I can’t help being completely honest with how I feel here, it’s the only way I can vent.

Thank you,

[Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.]

 

Journal Entry 500

February 1st (Friday) 2018

 

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[Psalm 118:8-9 It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man. It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in princes.]