Trust in Christ, He will save everyone. Have faith in Him, saviour of everybody in existence! <3

Luke 3:6 All flesh shall see the salvation of God

 

Journal Entry 9 – Persecution Points

September 13^th (Thursday) 2017.

You know, it’s gotten increasingly difficult to type these journal entries on a regular basis. Why? Well while a part of it is because I’m getting tired of doing it (not really that limited on ideas for the time being), the majority of it is because of two reasons

1) My Family

You know how your family is supposed to support you? While mine does and I’m grateful for it, they’re way to monitoring and pushy. Whenever I try looking into Christianity, my family always tell me not to look into that stuff. It’s weird considering the fact that my family members are Christian and knows that faith alone in Jesus Christ saves, but she’s not willing to let me go into it. I know what she’s going at, she was in a cult and she’s worried I’ll get mixed up into one too, but I know what’s a cult and what’s not. I’ve even tried getting her to get me to read a KJV Bible but she hasn’t let me buy one. While I’m most definitely not questioning my parents salvation by writing this, I’m simply writing this just to get this off my chest, since really, online is the only place I can share this type of stuff. I’m scared.

Most people who work 2 jobs are jobs that are mostly physical and require very little mental work to put in. I worry, I try to relax by doing other stuff online. I can’t close the door either because it would make it harder for me to breathe.

I’m already hungry and tired. it’s the only time when this house is at peace and not in pieces!

 

I’m so tired, I have work to do but I want to type so badly. I don’t care if I die, because I’m not scared of death. You can’t track me on here. Besides, God is protecting us so we’ll relatively be safe. Still find it painful how I’m kinda limited at my typing speed riught now but whatever. It’s another 10:00 pm and I don’t care if I’m tired. Kill me now. [Future Edit: By this I mean, I can be killed and I will still be safe, protected by the Lord] I’m going to Heaven no matter what as I have trusted in Jesus Christ alone for salvation. I’m making every day worth it by talking about it. I will say everything, I’m prideful of nothing. (Got really motivational now that she’s gone and I can play me intense music again.) I pray that my family gets better.

 

During one activity though, something notable that showed up. It was during an activity Rarely do ever laugh (when I do, I thank God for it though, since it feels so nice. I savor those moments. It’s why I look forward to Heaven, as I’ll be able to have the true genuine laughter of Abraham and not the distrusting laughter of Sarah). Genesis 20.,

When I try to actually make one of my jokes, they don’t laugh. It’s always when I do something accidental (in which I myself don’t even find funny) that makes them laugh. I’m still glad that I’m different and that I’m an outcast to everyone else, makes me have a narrow and unique experience with God that rare do have. I thank the Lord for blessing me with my personality, so that I can clearly see belief in Jesus Christ alone the sole way to salvation).

 

When I’m in Heaven, my breathing, my fears, my emptiness, my lonleyness. God will release me of all those sorrows and no one will take my joy :)

Jesus has really helped me appreciate life. May God bless even more all of you readers too.

The days just feel like they go by like weeks.

God knows that I would want them as my friends and will surely give them to me in Heaven. Oh the joy that will be. Typing this just makes me have a resolve to all these problems that nobody else can offer. This extroverted guy then said that we weren’t making fun of my stuff, which I get. He’s really active, just not in Christianity. I though so, because he said that he wasn’t an atheist. However he said “Please forgive my sins Holy Father”. Wow, that’s surprising. He said it laughing thoughI can’t tell if he was being genuine. Know this since his father is a metonnite.