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Journal Entry 87 – Photo Pass
December 11th (Monday) 2017
You know what’s annoying, wanting to do a bunch of exposition, but then changing my mind about it because it takes up too much time and details to write about. But I’m not going to let that stop me, despite my fingers typing slowly for some reason and not typing fast like they usually do when I have this type of motivation, I’m still going to do this. Because the spiritual is meaningless without the physical.
Ø Too much physical = Just another useless autobiography (especially when it’s about the average life about some random guy on the Internet that no one cares about, except for his few loved ones of course).
Ø Too much spiritual = Just another one of those Bible blogs (you know, the ones that just spam messages like “don’t give up” or “be happy”, while quoting a Bible verse that you’ve head a million times before).
John 3:16, For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
Philippians 4:13, I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
Matthew 6:33, But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
Matthew 6:34, Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.
https://escapetoreality.org/2012/05/16/7-most-popular-bible-verses/
https://cruxnow.com/church-in-the-usa/2017/04/23/aaron-hernandez-write-john-316-forehead-killing/
Hey don’t worry, at least that guy’s happy that I learned to actually use pictures in these types of posts. Now, for some reassuring articles that I found online.
http://reknew.org/2008/01/the-case-for-annihilationism/
[I posted annihilationism link as I am against annihilationism. Everyone will be saved and go to Heaven!]
Yeah, I have no clue what is up with those pictures either lol, anyways unto today! Dang, already 5:17 PM too, gonna do this by 5:30. Ready, GO!!!!
http://reknew.org/2008/01/when-does-salvation-happen/
Dangit, that made me worry a bit, but I’m not going to treat that obsession. Onwards!
Yesterday, as told briefly, I got a haircut for today.
I ate lunch already at 11:30,
http://reknew.org/2014/08/what-does-it-mean-to-be-married-to-christ/
This keeps haunting and torturing me. I know I am saved. I have God’s gift of the Holy Spirit, it’s his wedding gift before he left me. It’s here right now assuring me, and what gave me the motivation to write all of these journal entries and religious messages about Jesus in the first place. As the years grow old, I will believe this more and more, seeing more and more of the fruit of the Holy Spirit, tasting it, and recognizing it as the fruit of the Holy Spirit. I’ll keep repeating it in my mind until I get bored of it and my mind stops taunting me with it. I just want to enjoy my anime lol. I trusted in Jesus and now I’m saved. He promised that whoever trust in Him is saved. I trust in Him and now I’m saved. Etc. Etc. Amen.
When I was waiting, 2 other people came up like 5 minutes before the
I’ll stop thinking about this salvation, and just face the fear without searching up blogs instinctively. Who cares if I have to watch anime like this, I will face it and get over it. Then, when older, even when watching tons of anime, I can go back to this one and re watch it and re remember it and it will just be as pleasurable as before. Screw you Satan, I’m saved; forever. I hope Heaven as anime lol.
When going in, I gave them my name but I wasn’t on the list. They said that I must have registered for a different day since so I just decided to go on computer and check out when my actual appointment was, since I completed it, but was booted out. I thought that meant that it was put in, not that it was full lol.
Talked to a person and they still remembers me and greeted me pleasantly. Brings back sad nostalgia of the days of joy where I wasn’t saved and where I would just live life normally. Though, right now my joy is more intense, it’s just hard to see it in this season of trials and tears. When I’m out, I’ll be so joyful, even more than before. And even more so in Heaven. If I was never saved at that moment, I would have definitely killed myself already, not having any motivation to continue in life, being shocked and blown back by how hard things just got in life. If I was never a Christian… I would have killed myself a long time ago.
Plus, I can’t keep worrying about salvation. I’ve researched so much about Jesus and have trusted in Him so many times that at this point, If I’m not saved it’s entirely Jesus’ fault because I’m trusting in Him alone. At least with this suffering, my time in Hell will be short, since it’s not eternal. [Hell is temporary, everyone will go to Heaven] That definitely relieves me. Amen to you God for showing me that. Still find it kinda funny that the Lord is literally answering my prayers of OCD, Scrupulosity, not sleeping well (well more of that is soon to come), Salvation doubts (a part of my own biological anxiety, since theologically I know I am saved), lonliness (giving me new friends to talk about newly discovered guy who running away from homie and who always says homie), evangelism (door to door and street preaching from ocdandchristianity.com site) and now eternal hell fire and hadesphobia fear of hell). [Hell is temporary, everyone will be saved and go to Heaven]
I’m facing my fears right now and will get over it. I will, I will I will. If I got through the days before, than I can sure as hell get through the days to come.
Anyways, I asked him if I could use a computer and he said to ask my old She can really sense my deep INFJ stare into her eyes. All my anger from taking an hour and half to sleep last night and all of this professional business stuff.
The dobuts going away, who cares. No matter how much I doubt doesn’t matter, it’s not what I did, but what Jesus did on the cross. No matter what I do, I am and always will be eternally saved for eternal Heaven and not to Hell because that’s not immortal life and eternal. Greek philoshoper heresy, listen to Jews instead, but Christian
I just worry about things to excessively, dangit 5:47 will I be ever happy, I will be think positive Gary boy help me help me plllleleeassseeeeeeeeeee why the hell is my nose tip so ITCHY BOI!?!?!?
Then I go downstairs and get stuff, email through fake protonmail
Ugh, last night spent hour and half doubting salvation, no not that but kinda no just not being able to sleep, tried sleeping at 10:30PM last checked time 11:30PM now I gotta sleep soon since already 6:00 PM dangit I wanteedddd this to be quick.
Motivated me and stuck in head was spiritually the Lord,
At, saw person actually spell out OCD for Set Theory and Logic for today. O meaning odd numbers, C meaning with and D idk. I could get it, but dunna where bag is. [The Lord may have been communicating to me through people, since I was hit heavily with OCD symptoms at this time]
So affirmatively, I’m losing it. And I’ll just relax, best I could do. Could be worse, I will face fears. Not let this suffering go to waste. Poor people have physical suffering, I have mental, I face my fears and not panic. How? Idk, just not think about it, conversation with mom other day helping I wiiiiilllllllll survive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So that my mother can be saved!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m already saved, faith alone in Jesus Christ, I don’t even feel like talking bout religious stuff.
Ok, enough catering to worry, It’s illogical, I am saved. Look at all I’ve done, those are fruit. All journal entries and all verses, I am saved. Who cares hell, it just a bit. If I can’t be saved now by this, faith alone trusting in Jesus Christ, then never predestine elect and never could be saved anyways.
I am saved.
I am saved.
I am saved.
Tell me that so I can know that.
Though the Lord knows I am saved.
Satan delights in my doubts.
So I won’t.
Doubt.
I
Am
Saved.
Forever.
The End.
Now.
Stop it.
It’s over.
Donezo.
The End.
Forever.
The End.
You don’t have to surrender your life to Christ. Just trust in Him and you will be saved because you trusted in Hm alone. Amen.
https://whyshouldyoubelieveingod.blogspot.ca/2016/05/what-its-like-to-be-infj-at-church.html
http://onechristiandad.com/2017/01/02/10-things-chrstian-infjs/
We are perfectionists.
In every area of life…from school, to exercise, to church, to our jobs, to our relationships.
It is exhausting.
While having grace and compassion for others, we often don’t have grace for ourselves. Because we strive to such high ideals, we often disappoint ourselves when we fail. When we sin, we often put ourselves in the penalty box, rather than immediately turning to Christ for grace and forgiveness. When I publish a blog post and notice spelling and grammatical errors, afterwards, I tend to tense up…
Just called to God and cired and beautiful now sto p being perfectionist and relax.
https://splinternews.com/life-is-hard-for-young-people-now-but-they-might-turn-1793849822
https://splinternews.com/life-is-hard-for-young-people-now-but-they-might-turn-1793849822
https://jdgreear.com/blog/2-ways-to-know-you-are-saved/
“I write these things to you,” John says, “who believe in the name of the Son of God.” It’s so simple that we’re liable to miss it, but assurance comes from believing in Jesus. This is the gospel: when we trust in his name, we cease striving to earn heaven by drawing upon our own moral bank account; instead, we withdraw on his righteous account in our place.
https://www.christianforums.com/threads/want-assurance-of-salvation-but-scared.7853948/
Hey. You definitely don't have anything to worry about. Your fear is proof that you believe! If you didn't believe in Him, you wouldn't fear Him.
THAT’S WHAT I’VE BEEN READING THIS WHOLE TIME, THE PDF I MENTIONED, THE ARTICLES I READ, THE ANIME I WATCHED, THE THINGS I EXPERIENCED ALL OF THEM!!
…
Thank you Lord.
For listening to
And answering
My prayers.
Holy be Thy name
As long lasting as my eternal security as a believer in you.
Forever and Always
Amen.
Bless your heart. You seem to be having a really difficult time with this one. I have come to believe that it is very possible that some of us are given OCD to predestine us to be believers. If I didn't have OCD I might not have cared so much about how I treat other people and I might not have been as concerned about the afterlife. If you believe that Jesus is the Son of God, you are saved. Don't worry. You are ok!
Don’t read rest of fourm though, just catholics and eastern orthodox running amock lol.
http://www.net-burst.net/guilty/religious-obsessive-compulsive-disorder.htm
What feeds this ridiculous addiction to checking is that checking temporarily feels good because it relieves all the anxiety. But like all addictions, the good feeling is short-lived and it just inflames the yearning for more. Like any other addiction, the only way to break this addiction is to stop feeding the habit. In this case, it involves refusing to ease the anxiety by checking.
In the case of religious Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, people will feel strongly tempted to ease their anxiety by seeking additional confirmation that the blood of Jesus covers their sin. Seeking confirmation that they are forgiven or accepted by God becomes an addiction that they must break. Like breaking any addiction, it will be agonizingly tough, but everyone afflicted by it must resolutely put up with the anxiety and refuse to relieve it. Eventually – after days or weeks – the anxiety will begin to fade.
http://www.net-burst.net/guilty/natural-cure.htm
Inositol 4 life
http://www.net-burst.net/guilty/stop-bad-thoughts.htm
During those Monday night studies, however, bad thoughts would enter my mind as we read the Bible. I now understand that it was not that I had any bad thoughts of my own; rather I feared I would think bad thoughts, and this fear brought them to me. Nevertheless, these thoughts haunted me.
Most of us with scrupulosity are very serious people. We have very sensitive hearts and are deep thinkers. So it is very helpful to try to find whatever form of fun appeals – sport, funny movies, whatever is light-hearted and fun. By doing such things, sometimes we can lose ourselves in fun and look at our worries and just think, “What a waste of time”.
Now Satan is trying to get me to worry about being perfectionistic and serving the Lord enough. I rebuke you Satan, I will not fall for that. I’m done reading these articles, I’m watching anime and relaxing.
My ministry is online…
http://www.net-burst.net/dole/ministry.pdf
A nagging issue that kept me from publishing this book is that I could never feel at peace about charging for something that I believe many people need. I kept being told that almost everyone will instinctively dismiss a free book as being of low quality, and I had no idea how to distribute it without the services of a normal publisher anyhow. Finally the Internet arrived, in which distribution is a breeze and it is common for written material to be provided without charge (except for advertisements, which I refuse but the absence isn’t seem particularly noticeable). Suddenly the whole world opened to me. Now, every day, people with all sorts of problems e-mail me. I have written literally hundreds of new webpages but in my reply I often just paste a few appropriate quotes from this book and people write back detailing how God powerfully used the quotes to touch them. Th
I’ve gone in and out of my room several times already. I started watching my second anime episode today, at 5:30. Now it’s 8:30 and have been interrupted. My room is so hot and my fan doesn’t cool it down, can’t watch because fan loud and embarrassing for mom to hear me watch stuff in another language, since she doesn’t like that stuff because she speaks another language other thank English.
But Iwill relax. My ministry will be out of love, not pressure. I will be able to relax, Heaven here I come. Heaven better be worth it, I better be in a better than constant-orgasmic inducing state. This will all be worth it, I just need to relax.
http://www.pastoralcareinc.com/articles/stress-burnout/
I’m done reading articles.
Now it’s 10:00 PM and my sister is still playing her annoying piano and I haven’t been able to watch much anime. Then with all this ministry stress. I don’t want to go into the ministry, I just want to do some articles on Christian stuff part time, that’s it. Just relate it to the real world only.
This is one way you can know what God wants from you. Where do you fit? What do you enjoy? What brings you delight and satisfaction?
I have heard people teach that God’s will is always difficult and requires great sacrifice. But I have seen that the most effective people in any ministry or occupation, or just life in general, are not the ones forcing themselves to do some dreadful task because they feel it is God’s will. Rather it is the ones who are doing something they enjoy so much that they feel guilty taking a salary for it.
When you find something that makes you want to jump out of bed in the morning, when you find something that challenges and thrills you, when you find something that you sense you were made to do, chances are you are getting close to discovering God’s will for your life.
God’s will is to get all the things that so much Christians have discussed about, and put them into a feasible web format. I’m the technology guy who will bring all of this old material that’s barely being seen anymore into a new light.
Whenever God calls you to do something, He will always supply the perfect measure of grace so you will be able to operate in your gift. But whenever you try to operate outside your gift, you will find it difficult, burdensome and miserable because there will be no grace for it.
I’m crying. I could have been relaxing and enjoying anime and watching moments with I thought I could have rest from scrupulosity, but I can’t. All of these professional Christians make life seem so miserable, that I have to sacrifice so much of my life for this kinda stuff. I hate this, I don’t want to be a missionary or an apologetic or an evangelist, I just wanna be a Christian for fun ok??? No intense doctrinal debates, just mentioning Christ in the every day things that I do, anime, videogames, etc. I’m so tired, if this is God’s will for my life, then why do I hate it so?
http://www.communicatejesus.com/29-reasons-people-dont-serve/
1. Churches sometimes have a tendency to harass people into serving. Asking is one thing, but the moment someone declines, don’t continue the discussion on that topic. Additionally, if someone is dedicated to one ministry, don’t bother them/guilt them about serving in another unless they come to you. I know you need people, but seriously, that is using people. You are thinking about how I can benefit the church and have completely ignored my needs/concerns as an individual. Listen to what the person says to you. If they are working all of the time to support their families, respect that. Pray for God to lessen their load and move on. Also, just because that person doesn’t want to teach Sunday school does not mean he/she is not a worker for Christ. People serve the Lord in many ways, not just within the confines of church administration.
For me, I serve the Lord daily with my own personal thoughts for Him. I post them, not to evangelize or apologize or disciple to other people. I do it because it’s fun. Serving the Lord should bring joy, not sadness. If it’s causing you stress, don’t feed your own marty complex by saying that “the more burnt out you are, the more rewards you’ll get in Heaven”, it’s based on faith not on being “burnt out”. At this point, I don’t even care about getting rewards in Heaven. I’ve had so much taken from me in my life that I don’t care if rewards in Heaven are a part of it. We’ll all be eternally happy in Heaven, so who cares. Who cares if we’ll have bigger cups, that’s completely subjective. Some people, like John, are born into it!!! How’s that fair??!?!?!?! It’s not. Though, we’ll still be able to appreciate the Bible in Heaven, are cups will still grow because, of course, we are immortal. So don’t rush it, just relax and take your time. Don’t fall for the evangelical stress that “millions of people go to hell every day for eternity”, you’re saved so relax. [God will save everyone in the end anyways, He’s the one who saves people, grace by faith, not of good works]
I just wanted to relax and watch anime and play videogames. I never asked for this life, I just wanted a fun life, not this life filled with legalistic pressures. Screw reading online blogs, I’m avoiding them. All they ever do is hurt me. For me, it’s ok not to serve at the local church because what I do online is already serving the church. Well, offline for now since this is just on a Word Document, but you get the point.
Dangit God, why do you have to put me under so much stress. I’m crying and I love being honest, I’ve cried so much recently. Plus math applied test tomorrow dangit. I just want to relax and watch this ONE ANIME!!! CAN’T YOU JUST LET ME DO THAT IN PEACE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [I apologize to the Lord for this, but my anger is directed towards the lies of ECT and Annihilationism. Universal Salvation is the truth, always. Christ saves all]
BUT NO
I can’t take it.
STOP IT
PLEASE
I’m so tired.
I’m crying.
I just want to be happy.
That’s all I want
All I ever want
I just want to be happy, but why am I so empty.
So just stop.
Please.
…
Heaven better have anime ok.
or someone by me or friends or someone who will never leave me.
Because you’\re torturing me now.
I’m so filled wit htears it’s ife I’m talking to my mother again.
Why Lord.
Why do you do this to me.
I thought you loved me.
Why do you torture me so?????????????
I better be able to watch anime in Heaven.
I don’t want to work in Heaven.
I want to relax in heaven.
In Heaven, I just want to have my own private place.
And just sit there and watch anime.
So each time is a new experience and new joy.
Why Lod.
Why.
I can’t take this.
It burns me.
I
Just
Want
To
Be
Happy.
I hate this so much.
Why.
…
Why did you do this to me.
https://www.onfaith.co/onfaith/2015/04/13/can-you-serve-jesus-and-still-enjoy-life/36617
“I think too many Christians feel this is a zero-sum game. That God, because he’s God, is more important than anything else. And redemption and not going to hell — what’s more important than that? So Jesus is number one, which means everything else must be of no importance . . . and any pleasure I enjoy in creation is glory and honor stolen from God.” Wittmer believes this far off the mark biblically.of my life.
Thank you Lord for this blessing of a site. It’s wonderful and is helping me to relax. I’m going to get this OCD treatment next I don’t want to wait I’m doing it now.
“I don’t want balance [between personal salvation or cosmic restoration]. I want to grab both extremes by both hands. I want to have as much worldly, earthly pleasure as I humanly can and live as much gospel, heavenly purpose as I possibly can. I want to be a flourishing human, because if you think about it a flourishing human is the best advertisement for the gospel . . . The gospel is what Jesus has done for us. It’s something we receive: the forgiveness of sins, which is wonderful, but also it’s for the whole creation . . . So the gospel is for individuals and for the whole world.”
Wittmer says John 21 (the episode after the resurrection when Jesus finds his disciples fishing) clearly illustrates that “redemption matters more than creation, but also drives us to creation . . . Just because redemption matters more, doesn’t mean creation is worthless . . . Even after the resurrection, Redemption Jesus still cared about creation.”
“We love Jesus most, but if we love Jesus most we get everything thrown in. Without knowing Jesus we’ll always be searching for that next thing. But if we do know Jesus we get to enjoy life now. We realize this is our Father’s world, and this is his gift to us. He put us here to flourish and thrive. We should never apologize for being here or be afraid that God doesn’t want us to have fun. Pleasure was his idea. Having a body was his idea. And we can trust he is really for us.”
http://www.zondervan.com/becoming-worldly-saints
When we eliminate our earthly pleasures, we inevitably limit the reach of our heavenly purpose. If we want to attract people to Jesus, our lives must be attractive.
https://www.wtsbooks.com/common/pdf_links/9780310516385.pdf
I hate when Christians tell me to “store up treasures in Heaven”. It makes me obsess over it and makes me worry that every second I waste could be less treasure in Heaven. Something I’ve permanently lost because of the temporary microscopic time that I spent here on Earth.
Ok, the Lord heard my pleas and calmed me down.
It's why it’s ok that God gives special favour to some people like John or Paul or Moses, because in Heaven we will be as great as them. We will earn rewards on the New Earth for what we do, for infinity. We’ll infinitely grow, always understanding and learning something about the Lord every day, while still always having something more to learn in his vast infinite understanding.
That calmed me because I don’t have to be perfect here, wondering whether I’m using every second perfectly.
I’ll be able to earn rewards for Heaven in Heaven.
One day when the man noticed that his sister was heartbroken in an effort to comfort her, he embraced her tight for a long time. In Christ's book, this was the man's greatest accomplishment.
While you are seeking God to reveal your life's purpose, sometimes little acts of love can seem mundane and unimportant, like helping your husband balance the checkbook, choosing to have patience with one of your children or reaching out to a neighbor that you find less than desirable. But remember, God notices. So the next time you're beating yourself up because you're not sure of His purpose for your life, think of this man and his brotherly embrace. Then smile, because if you are building your life on Christ with love, what you do will matter for eternity.
I won’t go crazy perfectionistic, I will relax. Next semester, I will fix my OCD.
It’s 11:00 PM, I’ve wasted so much time, could of relaxed, but will relax on New Earth doing actual fun things (like watching infinite anime and playing infinite video games lol). See you later.
Ok, this is just another demonic attack, just OCD.
Satan, you won’t win.
This is one big joke isn’t it.
I will get treatement.
I will win.
No.
I’m saved.
So I’ve already won.