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Journal Entry 79 – Worrying about Worrying
December 3rd (Sunday) 2017
Why. I wake up from sleep and I worry about sleep, despite being able to do just that so peacefully a little bit ago. Why. Why was I born into this situation where I have to worry about every little thing in my life, the things I eat, the words I say, the nights I spend. Is it my fault, or is it just because of my own biological conditions? Either way, it’s my fault because it’s my body, because even if it were biologically, that would still be biologically my own body.
Romans 12:4, For as we have many members in one body, and all members have not the same office:
I like to imagine that God made me this way, pessimistic, obsessive, worrying, feeling hopeless, depressed. No, I like to know that God made me this way, because He did what He did and this is it. If I am made in God’s image, does God also suffer from these feelings?
Psalm 100:3, Know ye that the LORD he is God: it is he that hath made us, and not we ourselves; we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture.
Philippians 1:20, According to my earnest expectation and my hope, that in nothing I shall be ashamed, but that with all boldness, as always, so now also Christ shall be magnified in my body, whether it be by life, or by death.
But that’s not the point of why I’m typing this. I’m not typing this to answer a meaningless and futile question such as the one I asked above. No, the question I want to ask is; sleep. Question Mark.
https://www.wikihow.com/Fall-Asleep-when-You-Are-Worried-About-Not-Falling-Asleep
Keep a journal. Try thinking about everything that bothers you and putting it on paper every day. Divide your worries into things you have already dealt with and things that you have a plan for dealing with. While you write, imagine that you are physically removing all these worries from your mind and placing them on the paper. This will help you put your worries away at the end of the day.[1]
That’s a good first tip, I should get on that oh wait I did. Don’t get the wrong idea though, I never started this journal to be able to sleep better nor to relieve my stress. In fact, sometimes this journal makes me sleep worse and worsen my stress because I haven’t typed enough words to “officially qualify it as a day made useful and productive, worthy of a journal entry”. Because if I’m planning to have this as my autobiography, I am making this automatic and into every day. Let’s hope the machine will run on a soul whilst not needing one.
But let’s not just describe it, let’s do it. Ahh, I already feel relaxed already, but I’m not going to let that stop me already. I feel the words of my keyboard gently flowing out, going slowly with this and not doing this like a race with a time limit like how I did some of my other journal entries. Solely and slowly ceasing stress… let’s start.
1) Worrying about sleeping and maybe having insomnia.
2) Worrying about evangelism (door to door and street preaching) because I think I have to dedicate my whole life to the Lord rather than doing what is better and having it as a soft branch. Witnessing should not be painful, but joyful. Because the Lord is joy and beholding Him is as such.
3) Worrying about not being able to play video games and watch anime and other fun stuff because I need to work hard today and be productive today or else it will be a day wasted of my precious time, every second and millisecond, serving the Lord my God.
Ecclesiastes 2:22-23, For what hath man of all his labour, and of the vexation of his heart, wherein he hath laboured under the sun? For all his days are sorrows, and his travail grief; yea, his heart taketh not rest in the night. This is also vanity.
4) Worrying about having to work hard to merit a good night’s sleep because if I don’t work hard to serve the Lord today, especially in evangelism, He shall strike me down.
5) Maybe losing my salvation, idk, I know I can’t but sometimes I switch to this from my doubts. Sometimes I doubt evangelism, sometimes sometimes I doubt salvation. It switches, and I worry about worry. (Wow, I never knew you could have an, and next to a, comma, that’s cool I thought it was just something merely poetic and for divisionary and arrivistic
Now that I think about it, I personally love Ecclesiastes. While my mom read me like the first 10 chapters of Genesis or something and stopped for whatever reason while I was little, I don’t remember what she talked about then. The first book of the Bible that I consciously remember reading was Ecclesiastes, and that was somewhere in like, Grade 10 or first part of Grade 11 or something??? Idk. My favorite book in the Old Testament will always be Ecclesiastes.
[–]Atheist turned Christianthesmartfool 14 points 2 years ago*
What??!! Do my eyes deceive me or is it the mod on /r/intj??!! I've never seen you here before.
Anyway, to answer your question... I would say Romans (gives the complete picture of Christianity), Job (shows how much we don't know and God is caring for us, he's in control, he tests us, he loves us) and Ecclesiastes (really shows when I look at life that there truly is no extra meaning to life unless there is a God. Found my situation like Solomon when I was a past atheist who truly looked and analyzed life).
Least favorite is any book that goes on and on about the Jewish customs and genealogy. takes a nap
https://www.reddit.com/r/TrueChristian/comments/6oq044/am_i_off_point_or_is_rchristianity/
Seesh, why does Reddit font have to be so big…
Anyways, let’s get back on this shall we?
Calm your mind with exercise. Exercise is good for your body and your mind! If you suffer from anxiety, try incorporating at least 30 minutes of physical activity into your daily routine. This simple lifestyle change can help your body cope with stress.[4]
Some people may call me reading this pointless, since I’m already doing most of what is being talked about on here, but I call it positive reinforcement. It’s like talking to another person about a certain subject even though you both agree on the same thing. Why do Christians talk to other Christians about salvation when they both agree that it’s grace through faith in Jesus Christ alone, once saved always saved? Because their opinion is always attacked by the other side. Why do people always go on their respective political websites even though it’s the same opinion all throughout? Because it’s a safe haven for those supporters to celebrate in their own worldview. Now, I don’t care about politics, but I do care about Christianity (which is far more important). However, I merely used the example of politics to help make the message that I’m trying to convey more relatable to the general audience.
Confront your worries. If your mind is racing with anxieties or obsessive thoughts, sometimes the best thing to do is to acknowledge their existence and actively work to dismiss them. The next time you find yourself worrying about something for no reason, take control by telling yourself that it is an obsessive thought and encouraging yourself to rise above it. Then distract your mind from the thought by finding a task or another thought to occupy yourself with.[5]
Wait a minute, do you see that? Obsessive thoughts. Clearly, I must be suffering from some type of OCD at this point. At this point, I want that diagnosis, not only so that I can brag and relish in my own inability, but have a label to call myself. That’s the benefit of insult, a name comes with it. Why do you think people have adopted so much [potentially insulting] terms such as , not just for comedic purposes, but because they relate to them. Suffering from a disease that you don’t know what is is the same as being insulted without the name of the insult. Personally, it seems impossible to imagine physically. Even when people laugh at you with no audible terms from an English dictionary, you can relate by laughing at their sheer stupidity to even use proper English words, but for this you can’t. There’s no laughter, no joy, no hope, only pain.
I stared at the void and the void stared back and said “I rebuke you”.
I stared at the abyss and the abyss stared back and said “I’m going on vacation”. “But you can’t” “Oh yes I can, no work, no joy, no pain, I never had any requirements”. For when something leaves it leaves nothing but when nothing leaves it leaves something. To do nothing takes something but to do something takes nothing.
When I stare at my slumber and it tells me that it’s going to dreamland without me I can’t stop it. I never owned it, no matter how much work I do, or how much joy I feel, or how much pain I feel, nothing makes me eligible or justified to have sleep. Because sleeping is resting and resting is not working and resting is doing nothing. But for the rest of us, this isn’t good enough. When I take out something I’m left with nothing, but when I take out nothing I’m left with nothing. So I will stay in this void and in this turmoil and stare at this nothing, because it’s nothing. As it’s impossible to do nothing, I do something, I do no bad thing and do yes good thing.
But it’s Sunday, didn’t go to church because too early in the morning, I’m going to rest and relax today, no studying just relaxing. I just hope that doesn’t merit me having trouble sleeping. Does hard work deserve good rest, does intense suffering deserve wonderful peace?
http://sciencenordic.com/worrying-about-sleep-will-keep-you-awake
https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2012/sep/22/dreamland-insomnia-sleep-cbt-drugs
Every night, about a third of adults have problems falling or staying asleep that aren't related to a persistent sleep disorder. As they lie in bed, many are caught in the classic paradox of insomnia: wanting sleep so badly that they can't get it. "The condition of sleep is profoundly contradictory," notes Emily Martin, a professor at New York University who has studied insomnia. "It is a precious good … but it is a good like none other, because to obtain it one must seemingly give up the imperative to have it."
Psalm 127:2, It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows: for so he giveth his beloved sleep.
Don’t let the devil rob you of your joy in Christ, for Jesus has already won the victory. The devil’s attempts to make you doubt your salvation will never change the fact that you are declared righteous in Christ alone through faith alone by God’s grace alone—regardless of what the future holds. Nothing can separate you from the love of God in Christ (Rom. 8:35–39). Cling to your Savior and be at peace.