Jesus Christ will save all people in the whole world, everyone! Have faith alone in Christ to be saved.

1 Cor. 15:54-58 "It shall come to pass the saying that is written: `death is swallowed up in victory. Oh, Death, where is your sting Oh, Hell (Hades) where is your victory.'


Journal Entry 76 – The Rest is Rest

November 30th (Thursday) 2017

Ok, yeesh, this mouse wheel is so stick and stuck that itfs practically unusable. Waitc

Thatfs the problem.

You know how I always start these journal entries off with some attempt at a catchy title or what not. Like some type of double meaning word, or maybe have a sentence that attracts the userfs attention. Yeah, blame English class for teaching me that.

Psalms 118:8 - [It is] better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man.

Micah 7:5 - Trust ye not in a friend, put ye not confidence in a guide: keep the doors of thy mouth from her that lieth in thy bosom.

But this isnft English class, this is my only break time, that sweet quiet spot. This is my only break, my only rest. I need the rest of this journal entry to be dedicated to my rest.

ANYWAYS. Letfs wrap this up real quick, right now the time says 4:55 PM. I already got changed, took a shower andc wait. Never mind, Ifll put Vaseline on my blood lips later (even though it quite literally hurts to smile and my constant irritating facial tic twitches from all of this stress and anxiety isnft helping either. I just hope that this will all go away

Yeeeshh, 5:00 PM, letfs go people.

Ifm already tired of the depression in my life, plus in a previous journal entry, I remember showing like this OCD coping this which was to make


James 4:8-10, Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded. Be afflicted, and mourn, and weep: let your laughter be turned to mourning, and your joy to heaviness. Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.

Psalm 16:11, Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.

Luke 6:21, Blessed are ye that hunger now: for ye shall be filled. Blessed are ye that weep now: for ye shall laugh.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-4, To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

I felt a strong urge to search up online, and still do now, what causes insomnia and how to prevent it, but I donft need to Though for me, I know I wonft struggle with that. I have prayed to God to help me with insomnia and to make me not worry about insomnia (since it really affected me a lot before Ifm saved. Sadly, it happens especially in the summer where Ifm trying to relax, I canft because I canft sleep so Ifm forced to do work,

Proverbs 3:24 - When thou liest down, thou shalt not be afraid: yea, thou shalt lie down, and thy sleep shall be sweet.

Mark 11:24, Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.

Psalms 4:8 - I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, LORD, only makest me dwell in safety.

Psalm 145:18-19, King James Version (KJV) The Lord is nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all that call upon him in truth. He will fulfil the desire of them that fear him: he also will hear their cry, and will save them.

I could not sleep for a whole night and I will still endure, why, because the Lord is eternally gracious and has blessed me withc

1)     Salvation itself (I will be going to Heaven no matter what, because itfs not about what I do, but about what Jesus did on the cross. Itfs not about doing my best, but having Christfs best put unto me. It is by faith alone that I am eternally and forever saved, once saved always saved)

2)     A soft cuddly cute comfy warm blankyyy. (Like not my main one, but an additional smaller one that I have.

3)     The Bible. (If it is indeed Satan that is attacking me while I sleep and is not getting me get rest and is trying to make me kill myself so Ifm useless to the Lord, during those times of bitter despair, agony and defeat, I will read the Bible. Then, Satan will have to stop his demonic attack, because all hefs dong is prompting me to be even more motivated to read the Bible.

James 4:7, Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.

Now I just gotta not search those things up, not satisfy my compulsions and just trust God. Itfs hard, because right now, the Devil is making me think and is lying to me that the answers lie somewhere on the Internet through someonefs own personal experience. If Ifm a human and I am suffering this badly, there must be at least someone in the world who is suffering as badly (or more likely), even more badly than I am who can help me. But I wonft.

Why do I worry? Because Ifm not trusting God. Itfs idiotic for me to do (self-centered). Can the same power that has saved me not sanctify me as well? If Christfs power has cleansed all of my past, present and future sins, than who am I to worry that it will not help me escape from these sins as well.

So Ifm only going online to get bible quotes, no other site. This is my Bible Blog avoidance journey, and today is day 2. [As in, only looking at the Bible itself and not trusting the words of people on the Internet]

Matthew 6:34, Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.

BAMMMMM!!! All the formatting, colors, typing and even some extra last minute font effects, 5:26 PM. A QUICK AND SPEEDY 30 MIN WRAP UP THAAAAATTTS WHAT I LIKE TO SEE BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good [To summarize the article, since I donft support full websites since they can say anything they want outside the confines of an article or quote. Itfs important to relax, to rest from the suffering of life. And video games can be a way to relax. Itfs the exact same thing with other games that donft use videos, like card games, or sports games. By relaxing, we give glory to the Lord. So let us not stress our bodies with overworking, for our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit.]

Ifm saved and I just need to survive my depression.

Learning to say gnoh unless God is not giving you a clear gyesh

So now Ifm saying no.

Compulsive overworking. Do you struggle with work boundaries? Do you check email late into the evening? Are you unable to unplug completely to go on vacation? Do you struggle to enter into solitude or spend uninterrupted time with family?

Emotional numbness. Do you feel you aren't able to really feel anything emotionally—good or bad? And if you did, are you afraid you would be overwhelmed?


Nonnononononoon stop it.

I will not be peer  pressured

By the religious equivalent of a kindergarden bully.

So go away, all of you pushers-of-work.


Stop it, you legalists.

I have depression.