Jesus Christ will save all people in the world, everybody will therefore go to Heaven, by faith alone in Jesus Christ.
John 12:47 Jesus "did not come to judge the world but to save the world."
Journal Entry 65 – Just Surviving
November 19th (Sunday) 2017
Below this is written a bunch of hateful and sad stuff. To negate that, I’m writing what the Lord gave me that made me happy…
I don’t have the energy, time or space to spare my hatred. I attack it now, with the strength of the Lord, despite my tiredness, so that it may be gone and depart and be left of my sight.
You know what I hate.
There, she did it again. She hears my typing and thinks that I’m not doing my work. Letting out my feelings that have constrained me for so long is so relieving, so relaxing so wonderful, knowing that even if she were to look at me strangely and try to stop me, she wouldn’t be able to stop the progress I’m making. She may be able to erase my joy and my peace and my content, but never my progress on here. She will never erase the words that I write here and the progress that I make for my rewards in Heaven. It’s what I strive for, despite this headache from this.
Psalm 127:1-2, Except the Lord build the house, they labour in vain that build it: except the Lord keep the city, the watchman waketh but in vain. It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows: for so he giveth his beloved sleep.
Luke 12:33-34, Sell that ye have, and give alms; provide yourselves bags which wax not old, a treasure in the heavens that faileth not, where no thief approacheth, neither moth corrupteth. For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.
Proverbs 23:4, Labour not to be rich: cease from thine own wisdom.
Proverbs 13:11, Wealth gotten by vanity shall be diminished: but he that gathereth by labour shall increase.
Hebrews 13:5, Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.
John 16:22, And ye now therefore have sorrow: but I will see you again, and your heart shall rejoice, and your joy no man taketh from you.
You know what I find relaxing, laying down on my back rest chair while typing this with my eyes clothes, not really thinking about the words that I say, but just typing the words that come to my head and the words the give me a heads-up to say them.
It's why sometimes I doubt my salvation, other days I don’t. That sense of fear that I get from thinking about them and listening to them, it’s an emotion that makes me have headaches for whatever reason. Thus, this shows that your physical state can indeed affect your emotional state and vice-verse.
Notice how when a person’s feeling sick, they often get sad. Or how old people become suddenly existential and full of dispair over their own dwinlding and detoriating physical wellbeing. Or maybe how most people end up working less hard at the gym due to their own lack of motivation in life. Those type of scenerios underline the importance of treating your physical health. And if you’re one of those people who thinks “Oh, a Christian shouldn’t go to the doctor, they should just trust God to heal them”, then take a look at these verses.
Genesis 50:2, And Joseph commanded his servants the physicians to embalm his father: and the physicians embalmed Israel.
2 Chronicles 16:12, And Asa in the thirty and ninth year of his reign was diseased in his feet, until his disease was exceeding great: yet in his disease he sought not to the LORD, but to the physicians.
Job 13:4, But ye are forgers of lies, ye are all physicians of no value.
Jeremiah 8:22, Is there no balm in Gilead; is there no physician there? why then is not the health of the daughter of my people recovered?
Matthew 9:12, But when Jesus heard that, he said unto them, They that be whole need not a physician, but they that are sick.
Mark 2:17, When Jesus heard it, he saith unto them, They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.
Mark 5:26, And had suffered many things of many physicians, and had spent all that she had, and was nothing bettered, but rather grew worse,
Luke 4:23, And he said unto them, Ye will surely say unto me this proverb, Physician, heal thyself: whatsoever we have heard done in Capernaum, do also here in thy country.
Luke 5:31, And Jesus answering said unto them, They that are whole need not a physician; but they that are sick.
Luke 8:43, And a woman having an issue of blood twelve years, which had spent all her living upon physicians, neither could be healed of any,
Colossians 4:14, Luke, the beloved physician, and Demas, greet you.
A Christian going to the doctor does not mean that said Christian is lacking in a trust in God, just that said Christian is trusting that God will perform miracles through that doctor. In fact, not going to a doctor could imply that you don’t trust in God completely because you don’t trust that he can send out a miracle through all avenues in life. Of course, there’s the obvious occultic avenues that you should definitely not trust in, but other than that, find a good Christian doctor (not just a doctor with random spirituality like yoga and ying-yang) and get your physical health in order. It will make you more fit and active in servign the kingdom of the Lord Jesus Christ. Our blessed hope, or salvation in Him alone, once saved always saved; the eternal security of the believer.
In the meantime while waiting for the doctor, this serves as the perfect oppurtunity to practice being emotionally calm. Instead of resting, I need to do my work now so that maybe in an hour. It’s my motivation for just today, to just survive. I could make this easier, but that hard life after, that would be more than just survive. Right now, I’m just surviving, even when it’s harder, even when I could make it easier on myself. This is the bare essentials that have ripped my flesh and made me bare. At least than I would die but I’m not dead. Close, I am alive, but not dead, in the middle of this survival. Just this survival alone, from doubts of salvation, worry of the future and mostly my fear of ging to Hell for all eternity. [Hell is not forever. Eternal = Aion Greek, Olam Hebrew, meaning pertaining to an age, a temporary time span. Hell will be emptied, all people will go to Heaven. You have nothing to fear my friend, past Song] If I’m able to be emotionally calm in this type of painful scenerio, then imagine the calmness I’ll feel when I’m actually physical well! Thank you Lord, for giving me that hope, even in desperate times and when times are full of dispair. You make me survive, just for you. It’s just your blessed hope that I need, to survive. But with you, I not only survive, but thrive through the great mutlitude of rewards you have in store in Heaven. I thank you for the motivation to just survive today, and tomorrow and yesterday. Why I am alive, why I will be alive and why I was alive. Alive through the living water of Jesus Christ, saved from hellfire by faith alone, even though I do not deserve it. I do not deserve anything, not even to just survive, but I am given so much more just for doing one thing. I am not just, God is just, not in saving me, but through just His mercy. Just faith alone is why I was and will be forever and eternally and securely saved! Amen!