Jesus Christ will guaranteed save everybody! To the entire world, I tell you, have faith in Christ, eventually you will, but with your free will, you will choose when, either here or in Sheol, but eventually you will.

James 2:13 "Mercy shall TRIUMPH OVER (exalt over) judgment."


Journal Entry 58 – Monitoring Myself

November 11th (Sunday) 2017

Today was tiring, despite it being Sunday, but at least the day went fast. When the day doesnft go fast and I play a lot in it, while I do find it relaxing, I also find it boring. Will the rest of my life be like this, a constant switching from tension to boredom and know middleground in between. Such is the life of a Christian in a world that hates him and Him.

John 15:18-20, If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you. If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you. Remember the word that I said unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept my saying, they will keep yours also.

Today I woke up early from cuddling my blanket to go to Church. The messagec was actually good. It spoke of Jesus given talents to men. I see that Jesus has done the same for not only me, but for all the Christians out there. For me, itfs technology, for another itfs carpentry, music, math, energy, etc. The only difference is that some of them are more profitable than others but God doesnft care about that physical wealth, He cares about the souls, the souls going to die that need to be saved lest they perish! [The Gospel never leaves us ashamed, so talents in this parable are a metaphor for love. Those with one talent, who love Christ, thatfs there talent]

I can work hard no matter where I am! I need to work hard and relaxing when I need rest. Those are the mundane things in life that is made holy in life, for when God is in your life all things are holy for God is your life and your life is of God. Praise the Lord for showing them this truth to show me this truth to show you this truth. His praise propagates through us all, all avenues of life and every venture we take. Ifm wounded, Ifm tired, Ifm angry and jealous and envious, but through faith in Jesus Christ alone I am made righteous as He is. To have the title of the Son of God, thatfs motivation enough for me, but even more so with rewards in Heaven. My suffering here does not matter. Like described in the video, Ifve already got my bus ticket to Heaven, so I might as well do good here while waiting, only thing worth doing.

Matthew 25:14-30 King James Version (KJV)

14 For the kingdom of heaven is as a man travelling into a far country, who called his own servants, and delivered unto them his goods.

15 And unto one he gave five talents, to another two, and to another one; to every man according to his several ability; and straightway took his journey.

16 Then he that had received the five talents went and traded with the same, and made them other five talents.

17 And likewise he that had received two, he also gained other two.

18 But he that had received one went and digged in the earth, and hid his lord's money.

19 After a long time the lord of those servants cometh, and reckoneth with them.

20 And so he that had received five talents came and brought other five talents, saying, Lord, thou deliveredst unto me five talents: behold, I have gained beside them five talents more.

21 His lord said unto him, Well done, thou good and faithful servant: thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord.

22 He also that had received two talents came and said, Lord, thou deliveredst unto me two talents: behold, I have gained two other talents beside them.

23 His lord said unto him, Well done, good and faithful servant; thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord.

24 Then he which had received the one talent came and said, Lord, I knew thee that thou art an hard man, reaping where thou hast not sown, and gathering where thou hast not strawed:

25 And I was afraid, and went and hid thy talent in the earth: lo, there thou hast that is thine.

26 His lord answered and said unto him, Thou wicked and slothful servant, thou knewest that I reap where I sowed not, and gather where I have not strawed:

27 Thou oughtest therefore to have put my money to the exchangers, and then at my coming I should have received mine own with usury.

28 Take therefore the talent from him, and give it unto him which hath ten talents.

29 For unto every one that hath shall be given, and he shall have abundance: but from him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath.

30 And cast ye the unprofitable servant into outer darkness: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

[The unprofitable servant is the one who does not believe in Christ with faith alone. The outer darkness is Sheol, the realm of the dead. They weep and gnash their teeth out of mental temporary anguish, as they recognize themselves as sinners and thus believe in Christ with faith only and are saved. All people in the outer darkness will be saved, and ther shall be no more weeping and gnashing of the teeth for everyone]


Like a heart rate monitor, I monitor myself. I will keep this pace, so that I may heed a high place.

Not just in the Kingdom of Heaven, but in the laps that I pace.

For I will not relapse and waste.

For the Heaven I will taste.

Makes this tribulation all so much more worth.

The anguish, doubt and dread that oh so hurts.


Recently got a new computer monitor for me because they were selling for cheap cheap cheap ($20 each). Despite this, it was a struggle to put it together. The AVA cord wasnft enough, so we either need a) a new video card for the second monitor or b) that white DVI cord to connect as well. It must be why it keeps entering into Power Saving Mode, since my primary monitor (the one that Ifm using right now) canft detect it because itfs not reading all of it. Since it was hard to connect this and that Ifll have to get use to having this new feature yet burden in my room, Ifll keep this monitor next to my primary monitor for now. After that, I rewarded myself with some tasty Greek Yogurt (custom made lol, just have yogurt + some kellogs thing with coconut, oats and dark chocolate). Tastes great,

1 Corinthians 10:31, Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20, What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's.

Isaiah 55:2

2 Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread,

    and your labor for that which does not satisfy?

Listen diligently to me, and eat what is good,

    and delight yourselves in rich food.

My mom recommended that I watch some funny stuff online to boost my mood and get rid of some burn out. Plus, she said that knowing it will help me to use said jokes as a part of my humour too. Even though Ifve already been doing this for the longest time, it felt nice knowing that was understanding me for once. Plus, it will help her feel good thinking that shefs helping me, which she technically isnft but technically is.

Proverbs 14:13, Even in laughter the heart is sorrowful; and the end of that mirth is heaviness.

Job 8:21, Till he fill thy mouth with laughing, and thy lips with rejoicing.

Psalm 126:2, Then was our mouth filled with laughter, and our tongue with singing: then said they among the heathen, The Lord hath done great things for them.

Proverbs 17:22 A merry heart doeth good like a medicine: but a broken spirit drieth the bones.

Proverbs 14:13, Even in laughter the heart is sorrowful; and the end of that mirth is heaviness.

While browsing on Reddit for some funny stuff to post on my website (featuring all the personal stuff of me because I donft have anyone whom I trust personally except the Lord through my own personal computer). I used a different ProtonMail account instead to send this one


I thank the Lord Jesus Christ for watching over me like the sheep I am to the Shepard. Thank you Father, for dying for my sins and for still staying with me so that I do not feel used to simply reach a statistic in your house, but because you really care for me. You did not save me because you cared just about the numbers and how much people there are in your house, but because you love me and treat me as more than just a value, I have value but I am not a value. You see me as valuable when I cannot see myself as that, when the world calls me a failure you hold me high. Thank you Lord, for blessing me so. Amen.

(How I feel when a NOSAS / Insecurist / Lordship Salvations / Faith + Works attacks lol)


I hope that list didnft seem to much like one of those long monitoring lists lol. Anyways, I had to leave them there quickly because itfs already late and I have to sleep not late so I can work my hardest (while still taking breaks because I as an INFJ get burnt out easily) to earn more rewards in Heaven! I rest in His word, His blessed word, my blessed hope, my salvation, is faith alone.


Psalm 119:28, My soul melteth for heaviness: strengthen thou me according unto thy word.

Ephesians 6:10, Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.