Jesus Christ will save all people. Everyone, have faith in Him! All people will be believers and saved!

2 Peter 3:9 "The Lord is not slack concerning His promise, as some count slackness, but is longsuffering towards us, not willing that any should perish, but that ALL should come to repentance."


Journal Entry 55 – Trudging Through

November 9th (Thursday) 2017

Ifm really getting tired out by making these journal entries. I literally just spent the last 20 minutes looking at old photos that Ifve saved to my documents, thatfs how tired I am. Now that I think about it, itfs not really these journal entries that Ifm getting tired of, but every day that goes on that Ifm getting tired of. I just feel this constant pressure of needing to do something productive and needing to do something to redeem the time. Itfs overwhelming to say the least and does not feel like a loving relationship with God.

Ephesians 5:16, Redeeming the time, because the days are evil.

Colossians 4:5, Walk in wisdom toward them that are without, redeeming the time.

Ecclesiastes 12:1, Remember now thy Creator in the days of thy youth, while the evil days come not, nor the years draw nigh, when thou shalt say, I have no pleasure in them;

I already feel old and feel like I have no pleasure in my days. At least other people will have a lucky life to live, with me giving them some old wisdom. But anyways, focusing on the present!

I understand that remembering the veterans is important, especially since they have gone through the hardships of war. In fact, the Bible even mentions respecting your elders!

Leviticus 19:32, Thou shalt rise up before the hoary head, and honour the face of the old man, and fear thy God: I am the Lord.

Proverbs 16:31, The hoary head is a crown of glory, if it be found in the way of righteousness.

Proverbs 20:29, 29 The glory of young men is their strength: and the beauty of old men is the grey head.

[ There was a Remembrance Day Ceremony I attended where Child A was insulting and making fun of Child B so Child B physically assaulted Child A. Woe woe woe to the human race. How we need Christ Jesus so much to save us from the evil of this world! ]

Serves as a reminder for me from God to not worry about this and move on. After all, I did ask Him to forgive my sins of being lazy and uncaring and disrespectful and lying, so Hefs faithful to forgive my sins. I just need to forgive myself for them, which I can because the Lord is inside of me and is faithful, even when Ifm not.

1 John 1:9, If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

2 Timothy 2:13, If we believe not, yet he abideth faithful: he cannot deny himself.

I still felt drained and tired. Even now, I still feel drained and tired typing this. No wonder itfs taken an hour to get this far into it through typing. Ifm not tired of Christ, Ifm tired of this world.

Isaiah 14:3-4, And it shall come to pass in the day that the LORD shall give thee rest from thy sorrow, and from thy fear, and from the hard bondage wherein thou wast made to serve, That thou shalt take up this proverb against the king of Babylon, and say, How hath the oppressor ceased! the golden city ceased!

Psalm 4:8, I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, LORD, only makest me dwell in safety.

John 16:33, These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.


Exposition aside, I for some reason, feel good about being tired, believe it or not. I feel calmed knowing that, despite my tiredness, I have true peace that the unbeliever shall never know, peace with the Lord Jesus Christ. We are all guilty sinners, deserving of death; as the price for our sins. Yes, God so loved the world that He sent His only begotten Son. Through virgin birth, He avoided the original sin of Adam. Through His sinless life, He avoided being tainted by sin. Holy and more so holy, He died on the cross, shed His blood as the remission of our sins, was buried and bodily resurrected 3 days later. In Heaven, He sprinkled His own blood on the mercy seat of Heaven, allowing those who believe (trust) in His name to be made righteous and to go to Heaven when they die. They are then saved from the death [Christ will come to all those in Sheol, the realm of the dead, and convince them to believe in Him, saving them thusly] and into the loving warmth that is our Saviorfs mercy. That is the gift of God, everlasting life, once saved, always saved. That is the eternal security of the believer, and we will never lose our salvation, it would be impossible for us to lose it.

John 6:37 - All that the Father giveth me shall come to me; and him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out.

John 10:28 - And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any [man] pluck them out of my hand.

John 5:24 - Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that heareth my word, and believeth on him that sent me, hath everlasting life, and shall not come into condemnation; but is passed from death unto life.

John 3:16 - For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

Salvation is not doing our best, itfs about having Christfs best put unto us!

Ephesians 2:8 - For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: [it is] the gift of God:

Philippians 1:6 - Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform [it] until the day of Jesus Christ:


I donft even want to be alive at this point. Wefre all sinners, myself included. Well, everyone just tells me to suck it up and live life because life sucks. If life sucks, then I want to kill myself because I donft want to be alive.

[ But by Christ I live, even 5 years later]

Ifm just a guy on the Internet who types Journal Entries about his own depression and suicidal tendencies. Just a sinner saved by grace, thatfs my only motivation to live. Not riches, not happiness, not popularity; rewards in Heaven. Thatfs all I want, all I can have and all that I will ever need. Amen brothers and sisters, amen. Know that youfre positivity is only possible because someone else is absorbing all youfre negativity. And that someonefs not me. Even I have my happy moments. That someonefs Jesus. Thank you Jesus Christ, for dying for our sins. I love you beyond everything else. Amen.