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Luke 3:6 All flesh shall see the salvation of God!

 

Journal Entry 49 – Fast

November 3^rd (Friday) 2017

James 1:26, If any man among you seem to be religious, and bridleth not his tongue, but deceiveth his own heart, this man's religion is vain.

So I’m not going to condemn her for that, as I don’t condemn my sister for insulting me. Both are essentially the same to me.

Matthew 5:4, Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted

Ecclesiastes 7:3, Sorrow is better than laughter: for by the sadness of the countenance the heart is made better.

2 Corinthians 7:10, Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.

What in the world, my aunt just randomly bursted into my room yelling. That’s why sometimes I hate having this fan here, despite how cool and relaxing it makes me, it doesn’t help me hear who’s going to burst into my room and make fun of me for keeping a journal of emotions. While it is important for a man to be strong and tough, taking it too far would lead to the stereotypical all muscle and no emotions type of man. I’m a sensitive INFJ man and God created me that way. He wants me to use what I have to help Him, otherwise He wouldn’t have formed me in the womb to be who I am today.

Psalm 139:13, For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb.

Exodus 4:1-2, And Moses answered and said, But, behold, they will not believe me, nor hearken unto my voice: for they will say, The LORD hath not appeared unto thee. And the LORD said unto him, What is that in thine hand? And he said, A rod.

All Moses had in his hand was something as simple as a rod, yet with it God was still able to perform many miracles through it. Changing to a serpent, the plagues of Egypt, the separating of the Red Sea, the 10 commandments. All because of that rod. All that there is in my 2 hands is a keyboard. Does it’s simplicity sadden me? No, it motivates me.

 

Yes, he was holding my own water bottle captive in his grasp as an incentive for me to stay there and play with him. I pity him, for being bored to the extreme to not only steal other people’s belongings, but vandalize the property in which his future lies? I forgive him, despite this, as God has forgiven me of my sins. Who am I to say a person’s sins are unforgivable, when they are of the same caliber of my own, just a slightly different? For without God I will be as he, but with God I be not like he. For he would not forgive, so I forgive. For He will forgive and so shall I.

Romans 12:19, Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.

Proverbs 14:23, In all labour there is profit: but the talk of the lips tendeth only to penury.

Looking unto 3^rd person at my life, it doesn’t matter. It’s the same old stuff again and again, the same old stress (though I’m saved), the same old people (though all people are sinners), the same old actions (though most of them are not saved). You came to read my journal entries to escape of that old routine, didn’t you. Sure, at times it’s good to reflect on what’s going on, but for the most part it’s nothing other than pointless filler. And you don’t want filler do you? (I’m saying this both to the audience and my future self). Good, let’s get on with this.

If I only I could, but I study there too.

I just hope that, there’s much time to do.

The things that I want, care, comfort of new.

Matthew 11:28, Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

You may be wondering why I’m going so crazy typing this so long. My response is that, God made me suffer so that I can depend more on Him. He makes people weak so that they can realize how strong He is. I don’t want to have to make God to make me suffer. I don’t want my suffering from God to be in vain. I will use that gift to it’s fullness, using every last sorrow as another motivator to type out of my heart’s desire, every text to liberate of my own, so I can keep His precious word there alone.

Psalm 119:10-12, With my whole heart have I sought thee: O let me not wander from thy commandments. Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee. Blessed art thou, O LORD: teach me thy statutes.

Blessed be the Lord, whom every gift from above is of joy. At times of tears, I lash out at my keyboard, spurring words of confusion and wrath. Not that that is something to do, as my anger had overtaken me then, I hope that it will not overtake me again when they day is new. But today is new, in the sense of me new feelings. Though I’ve felt them before, they act not as a ceiling. For the cover my head, yes, but I put my head high. Lengthened up to the clouds, not caring when I die. For to die is to gain, face over the rain. My head filled o’ light, and what is this sight. This sun, this Son, oh salvation by any other is none. No gun to me head, I live. This relief given to me, I give. To you the reader, please pass from seeder. For there’s always a needer, whom God purposed in the seeder.

“I am still a sinner, but also a seeder. I am both, but I do not seed all sin. God is in me, so I seed happiness from within”

1 Peter 2:24, Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed.