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1 John 2:2 Jesus "is the propitiation for our sins, and not for ours only but also for the whole world." ()

 

Journal Entry 114 – Happy Thoughts

January 8^th (Monday) 2018

Literally just lost track of time, when I was in bed cuddling with blanket, slept a bit cause of stress Now I’m worried if I’ll sleeo since I alreaduy slept when I came here and dangit and now I’m hungry, (and gotta take a shower too because taking every day to help sleep but make bed quick, soooo muuuchchchchchchch rushshsh hahahahahahahahhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhaaaaaaa) I just wanted to watch anime in peace Noticed my breathing at school and now can’t stop thinking about it

It’s ok. Now, all to do is to get it. That’s my goal. Then, I will be happy.

Dammit, I’m trying to relax and my mom thinks that in my room alone I was just working on religion. There is NOTHING that I hate more than religion. [Religion meaning man made religion, since Christianity is a relationship with Jesus Christ]

 

. I’m not weak enough to be manipulation by that, and now because of that stupid nonsense I’ve been left with permanent scars in my flesh. Now I’ve got nobody to turn to, not my own mother (always tells me I’m too religious

So screw it, I live only for one reason. Not my happiness, or that of others, because that always goes away in the end.

I’m already all good in terms of happiness for the future, because I am eternally saved, I just need happiness now. Because my life sucks.

I will have a happy life. That’s what I repeat to myself every day.

If I ever plan to kill myself, know this.