ISAIAH 45:22-24 "Turn to me and be saved, all you ends of the earth. By myself I have sworn, my mouth has uttered in all integrity a word that will not be revoked: Before me every knee will bow; by me every tongue will swear. They will say of me, `In the Lord alone are righteousness and strength.'" (NIV)
Journal Entry 10 – Feel it Beating
September 29th (Friday) 2017.
Today I felt it beating, beating me. My heart beating, but with the veins on my forehead popping out over and over again. I motion my three fingers (ring, middle, index) to feel it, touch navigating where it is. I feel it and I lay them on it. My head hurts, but I feel it. My feels hurt, but I head it.
I awoke today to be saddened that I wasn’t healed properly, which was sad Just rest there. I would just lay out, relax, and meditate on God’s word, my comfort. When saved, always saved.
I get there later than I do, because I was relaxing. Stalled for time, Somethings different today. As other days are normal Dangit; follow instructions. I’m too sick and tired to do that, so I just do my own thing, I reply with “Just a little sick”. I would have appreciated more the fact that she left me head off early, if it weren’t for the fact that I had only been left off early by 5 extra minutes. Speaking of little, what made my phrase seem efficient was that by saying a little, I reinforced looking out of sorts, since if I properly demonstrated the appropriate size of my sickness (not little), I would have appeared not sick, as I was not sick enough to feel my sickness. Get what I’m saying? At the room some random person talked to me about killing people. Strange, but whatever. Of all the times people talk to me, it’s when I’m at my worst state. That’s why it’s important to love them no matter what you are and what they are. Because what are we other than guilty sinners in the eyes of Jesus Christ. Saved by faith alone in Him. When saved, always saved!
I’m tired of faking and lying to uphold the false pride that I have. It doesn’t matter, since I have Christianity on my mind, I will be rewarded well for surviving this. To save up, I hold the tissue for dear life, like a soft blanket in a cold night, I need the softness on my nose to combat my cold. (My nose was getting red by all the amount of times I blew on it. It was always wet and running away as a wet liquid down my nose). I couldn’t concentrate, I was too out of sorts
To celebrate I go back to that room and just sit there. I try to read King James Bible there, [You can read any version, since English translations have errors, Hebrew and Greek manuscripts are best] but can’t due to Wi-fi. Reminded of anger with offline apps (apparently all apps are offline which is cool) and putting music on IPhone without ITunes. I just sit there, rubbing my head with my 4 fingers, all together. I am not alone, I have the Lord. Just sitting there, Luckily for me, I am saved. Just gotta watch out for those who say, apostasy is possible for a believer, which it’s not since once you are saved, you will always have your salvation no matter what. That is my blessed hope, that all of this will work out in the end. To be with Jesus Christ through Jesus Christ alone in Heaven. Oh how wonderful a day that will be!
I would go to but the problem is that I blow my nose so much. a beautiful luxury with infinite tissue dispenser, so it felt like Heaven to me. Though Heaven is much greater which is wonderful. Heaven is great I get very tired, frustrated and more headache trying to find tissue. I really want to die at that point. So sad you know. I find it disappointing how I didn’t get a heart attack then. [Future Note: And yet I continue, so I may write these messages to you all]
Jesus Christ gives me hope to live. What is true hope for me though is Jesus Christ. That by faith alone in Jesus Christ we go to Heaven! Once saved, always saved! That is my blessed hope, a hope no man taketh away.
Have hope future Song, I endured this and so can you if events like this arose in the future. I promise you future Song that you will arise to Heaven, events endured do not keep your salvation it is kept by God. Events endured are rewards. Beautiful titles in Heaven. Stay strong brothers and sisters! Rewards people!!! [All shall receive the reward of life, everyone will be saved by faith through grace, equally]