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Journal Entry 108 – Buy Sigh
January 1st (Saturday) 2018
Yes, that’s right. Today is FINALLY the year where it’s my birthday!
Ok, that’s the only joke I can think of at 4:20 AM.
https://www.quora.com/What-are-some-things-a-parent-should-not-say-do-to-their-INFJ-child
Do not force them to be extroverts — don’t do it.
https://thoughtcatalog.com/lizzie-reynolds/2016/01/the-four-distinct-stages-of-the-infj-door-slam/
https://www.16personalities.com/infj-parents
https://introvertdear.com/news/infj-child-raising/
I was a sensitive soul that would cry if someone raised their voice, but I was never afraid to make a stand if I felt someone was being mistreated because they were different. I humbled grown men and embarrassed those that belittled others.
All that being said, I couldn’t read or write properly, and the concept of time was meaningless. I was at the bottom of my class.
My teachers were right — I was a perpetual daydreamer. But they were wrong to assume that meant my mind was vacant. It was rich and deeply vibrant with the possibilities tomorrow could bring. They just couldn’t climb the dizzy heights needed to reach me, for I was too busy creating a new world to think about times tables and long division.
Lol, no wonder I sucked at doing stuff in elementary school lol, I was stuck creating that sort of fantasy world that gives me much comfort today. If this world will not give me the comfort I need than I will merely create those who will. Just temporarily until I will be perfectly having in the arms of my loving God in Heaven, already and forever saved. I’m looking forward to that glorious peace and cuddly warmth, but until then I’ll relax and go through life. Why? No clue lol, but who cares, He’s kept me alive for some purpose, might as well follow it. Not for extra rewards or something, but because I love Him and love the fact that unlike anyone else in the world, He truly understands me. Amen, thank you Lord Jesus Christ, for blessing me so.
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/thrive/201205/are-extroverts-happier-introverts
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I’m always stressing about all of this work that I must do for God, that I won’t name because even their dreadful names stress me out, but God tells me that it’s ok and that it’s done. Rewards don’t matter because eventually, we will all become perfect like Christ. It’s only when relaxed that I see that oh so wonderful truth. That I can finally have smeone whom understands me, our Lord Jesus Christ. A friend. I feel around me a wonderful feeling, not just because I’ve got an introvert quiet alone time break but because I know that in Heaven, the Lord will prepare a place for me that is perfect. Where, despite how different I am, in His great mercy He will give me literally everything I need to be happy. Even if extra rewards did mean something permanent and exclusive, they wouldn’t mean anything for me, because I’ll be literally perfect in happiness like God Himself!!!!! GOD HIMSELF!!!
12 I perceived that there is nothing better for them than to be joyful and to do good as long as they live; 13 also that everyone should eat and drink and take pleasure in all his toil—this is God's gift to man.
We will be happy like God and in the infinity of Heaven will earn more rewards in Heaven, as we are forever IN Heaven!!! Rewards are relationships like how on Earth our rewards are offspring, on Heaven it’s spiritual offspring.
Kinda got too inspired there and searched up the perfect happiness of Heaven by Unlocking-the-Bible.com or something, until they talk about H e double hockey sticks being “eternal”. Song, don’t believe them, they’re just an organization going with the traditional view of he double tennis sticks because it gives them the most money.
It’s impossible to fail, I’ve already won in Christ. Even if I do fail, it will be alright because I will still be happy when not existing. Wonderful truth isn’t it? [The Victorious Gospel of Christ saves everybody!]
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Ahhh, the Lord knows how much this sometimes stresses and worries my mind, He knows it all. In Heaven, He’ll make sure that I get the extra comfort (well infinite comfort lol) that I need to get over this fact,. Well, He’ll just get rid of the feeling all together. Unlike the people here, He will always be there for me, to listen to my words, and listen to what I have to say and what I’m worried about and will l always be tthere for me and listen to me.
Ahhhhhhh, I can feel the Lord looking upon my presence, and blessing me with joy right now, a jhoy that is only an infinitely small fraction of the joy in Heaven. Imasgine all of the things to ucddl, imagine perfect warmth and quietness, imagine all the soft blankets I can hgu and cuddle and have joy in I. Ahhhh, it will be so wonderful. Thank you Lord for this joy and this comfort. Forget looking at the words of others, I’ll just listen to what feels right and what makes me happy, because that’s you Lord in my head. Thank you, so much. I love you Lord, and I know you love me. I love you so much. Thhhhank you. Ahhhhhhhhh, so this is peace huh.
https://www.reddit.com/r/infj/comments/2o5uz2/growing_up_infj_your_infj_quirks_you_had_as_a/
1. I thought EVERYTHING had feelings, even inanimate objects. For example, I popped an orange balloon at my friend's birthday, and I was overcome with a feeling of guilt. As a young child, I felt like I had committed a murder of sorts. I made a resolution: in honor of the orange balloon, orange would be my favorite color. I told people orange was my favorite color for like a year, but I never told anyone why.
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I feel that too lol, sometimes I would see my mom or sis hit something in angry but then go to that object and comfort it over getting hurt lol.
One of the earliest things I can remember, I remember once when I was like four years old, I was in a really bad mood, and I threw a tantrum and threw this book that I had on the ground. It was like a maths exercise book and it had a big smiling cartoon wizard on the front and a load of numbers. I ran around the house and then went back into the living room, when suddenly I felt really really guilty, because all these nice men somewhere must have gone to the effort to draw this nice smiling wizard and make all of these books in a big factory to make me feel happy and help me learn maths, and I am letting them down by being all miserable.
I was also very secretive when I was a kid. Like I always used to hide whatever I was doing on the computer when my parents came in. Even though I wasn't doing anything to get me into trouble, I always felt as though I should have something to hide.
Oh my word, thank you Lord. I can feel your love for me so great right now and so wonderful thank you Lord for being with me. When I sleep and cuddle my so soft blanket, I always think of your wonderful prescense. Lord. Planning everything out for me to experience and love, all because you care about me so much. I loveyuo Lord above all else,e thank you so much. I feel so wonderful wath is this wonderful feeling? I love it, so so much. Thank you. Thank you Lord so much. I love you. It’s so relatabvle, in Heaven you will comfort me and move all this trauma away. I will be happy forever in Heaven.
I love this peace, I will not worrrry and always come to you. I love you Lord, thank you.
https://www.reddit.com/r/infj/comments/2o5uz2/growing_up_infj_your_infj_quirks_you_had_as_a/
https://www.huffingtonpost.com/holly-klaassen/why-parenting-is-so-hard-for-introverts_b_5518659.html
If you’re an introvert and the parent of a small human, it can be very freeing to realize that maybe it’s not just that you “don’t like the baby stage.” Maybe it’s just that being with people 24 hours a day — even the wonderful little beings you created — is difficult and draining.
And it’s OK (and even, I think, necessary) to take time away from your little energy-suckers to recharge and to think about them and to miss them. That may mean getting a babysitter sometimes (even if you’re a stay-at-home parent), getting a mother’s helper (a young teen or tween to play with your kids so you can chill in your bedroom alone) or setting them up with a movie so you can have an hour to re-charge your batteries.
These things don’t make you a bad parent... they make you a wise and realistic parent, one who understands and accepts your temperament and limitations; one who does what’s necessary to keep your family and home running smoothly.
This. This is wonderful, wonderful advice. The Lord wants me to be myself despite all the pressures of others. Thank you Lord, thank you so so much. I do not worry about, but look forward to the perfect happinesss of Heaven. Fait halone, osas boooiisisissssss. God loves me, thank you.
http://www.scarymommy.com/introverted-mom/
2. Avoid making zero time for solitary time: Your kids want to hang on you, sit on you and wipe their snot on you. This all gets to be a bit much. If you are a true introvert, you need some quiet time to fill up your patience reserves. And if you work outside the home during the day, you will need it even more. Find it where you can. Grab a magazine, announce that you need to visit the loo, and spend an extra ten minutes behind the locked door. If you can sneak out, go for a walk or an errand run in the evening. Maybe you can shoo your family out of the house for an hour or two on the weekend. The park or Target are good go-to places for dad and kids to wander aimlessly. Again, don’t feel guilty for requesting or taking this time. You’ll be a nicer, more effective parent if you carve out a little introvert-refueling time.
2. Avoid making zero time for solitary time: Your kids want to hang on you, sit on you and wipe their snot on you. This all gets to be a bit much. If you are a true introvert, you need some quiet time to fill up your patience reserves. And if you work outside the home during the day, you will need it even more. Find it where you can. Grab a magazine, announce that you need to visit the loo, and spend an extra ten minutes behind the locked door. If you can sneak out, go for a walk or an errand run in the evening. Maybe you can shoo your family out of the house for an hour or two on the weekend. The park or Target are good go-to places for dad and kids to wander aimlessly. Again, don’t feel guilty for requesting or taking this time. You’ll be a nicer, more effective parent if you carve out a little introvert-refueling time.
Beautiful, just when the Lord fewlt my worry I’ve been feeling, He’s come in toe comfort me and so me that, everything is going to be ok. I’ll be honest with you guys, this has been one of the best journal entries that I’ve ever written, 2nd to Passover, but 2nd not because of emotion, but because of objective value and decision to stop feeling the pressure of others so seriously. This feels like an aroma, a ¾ of what I felt at salvation, I am saved and that’s wonderful. The Lord must have looked at me and must have been so sad to see how iwas treated byt the others. “Be a man, stop being so emotional you girl” The words hurt so so much, so I’m just glad that the Lord lets me cry on His shoulder and hugs me and embraces me and comforts me. I just want hugs and to cuddle, that’s my happiness.
But while waiting ansd returning that love by staying onEastrh and waiting for my flight, I’m going to work hard (toil) and get joy out of it. There’s nothing wrong with that, even with other people suffering.
Why has it taken me so logn to write this scholarship stuff, becuause it makes me feel guilty about not being uhhow the world wants me to be, but the world will always want me to be something different. This whole wtime, God has been telling me to be myself. And that’s exactly what I want to be, it’s what I’ve always wanted.
I don’t regret going through my suffering, because it led me to the greatest joy in the Univerise. Salvation, because it leads to the greatest joy, eternity in Heaven. Hell is not eternal torment, it’s [temporary. Here’s the first time I mention Universal Salvation by words now] . Heaven, that’s eternal and I know I am saved , God will comfort me so much their. So at this point, if I’m not save,d then not only will I not be saved, but nobody else will be as well, because if it’s not by faith (the finished work of Christ on the cross), then it’s by nothing.
Thankk you Lord, for this love. I truly appreciatre it. Thank you for lifting those pressuyres off of me. You may be leaving again, but I guess I’m ok with that. I’ll have plenty of time to be with you and talk with you and hug you and get comfort and cuddle from you in Heaven Lord. Thank you, because even your well timed prescense now, makes me better.
Just because of this one moment, I’m going to say it. I love ChristmaSS AND New Years. Ok Lord, you win. Now, overtake me with your joy. I am forever saved. Amen,.
Now, time to end this speech before it ends on a sour note about me worrying about you-know-what.
5:00 AM.
Update
5:00 PM
God will reveal Himself equally to all of us, not one of us more than the other!
Because I hate they say when they tell you to “store up treasure in Heaven” by forcefully converting people to fundamentalism or some other speech stuff. That’s just extroverted.
That’s what it means to store up treasures in Heaven. God treasures people. Our treasures in Heaven are our rewards in Heaven, loving relationships with people in Heaven.
God isn’t implying that some people will have more or less treasures in Heaven, He’s saying that we should love people because in Heaven that will be all that matters. We will all be equal in Heaven, and that’s what I’ll love about Heaven. What I’ll love the most in Heaven is that we will all be equally happy in Heaven because we will all be joint hiers in Christ.
Some of us won’t have smaller mansions, or less trees in the grotto, or less posessions or talents or gifts. There is no man or woman, but one in Christ. We will be on with Christ, in the likeliness of Christ.
It’s actually singular, because there’s only 1 treasure, the 1 crown, the crown of life, eternal life.
Oh my word I’ve finally discovered, it thank you Lord for answering my prayers through all this time, you have finally revealed to me this great truth! Thank you Lord, so so much. Amen.
Beautiful. The crown”s” in Heaven just seem like an excuse for more churches to fear monger people to e-word to get more money for their leader. I’ve noticed that these seem to be their main motivators.
1. They say hell is eternal torment, but it’s just death. [Wages of sin is death, Sheol, realm of the dead, all people will go to Heaven]
2. They say to store up treasures in Heaven (bigger mansions), but really it’s just 1 treasure.
3. They say to earn rewards for Heaven (more talents), but really it’s just 1 reward.
4. They say to aim for crowns in Heaven (increased knowledge), but really it’s just 1 crown.
5. They say too, but really it’s just eternal life.
That’s not to say that it’s works salvation, we overcome because Christ had already overcome the world. We receive all the treasure, reward and crown because Christ already earned it for us, we just have to believe in Him.
http://paradoxbrown.com/when-we-all-get-to-heaven-love-equality.htm/
http://www.reformedbiblechurchsc.com/Transcribes/Chompff/Isa_42_08_Sermn_0.htm
https://hurstrobert.wordpress.com/2012/10/21/heaven-knows-no-hierarchy/
And looks like that’s everything I have to worry about the Bible gone. No more e-word or eternal torture or rewards. It’s done. Finally, and into this new year, I’m looking forward to it.
I won’t give away my money like crazy, I’ll save it so that I can have kids early and can retire early and enjoy life while I can before Heaven. Just save money and not get taken advantage of and manipulated to give it all away. I’m strong, not weak and won’t be manipulated to do something that crazy.
And to think that you’re literally taking advantage of a person with a mental illness (I’ve pretty much confirmed myself I have OCD) to do this. That’s just sick. And to think that you almost painted Jesus Christ in this light. Thankfully, the Lord rescued me before I could think that way. Thank you, Lord, for relieving me and getting that burden and weight off of my mind. Thank you, Lord, so much for freeing me and reminding me that, no matter what happens, I will be perfectly happy in Heaven like you Father forever. Why? Because you promised it Yourself to me. Thank you, God. Amen.
For once in my life, I truly don’t want to kill myself. This is what being a Christian is all about, freedom. Thank you Lord, so so much. Amen. Goodbye everyone, I love you all. Mwah.