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1 Cor. 15:22 "Since by man came death, by man also came the resurrection of the dead. For as in Adam ALL died, even so in Christ ALL shall be made alive."

 

Journal Entry 100 – Almost Bleu It

December 24^th (Sunday) 2017

That. That was scary, very scary. Lemme just drink my cup of camomile tea for a second here and tell y’all what happened. (Btw, the cups that I use aren’t small, they’re actually pretty big. Like mug shot (mug) sized big type of big).

What??? A face reveal? Nah homie, that’s someone else lol.

What this screen reminded me of is one of those “blue screen of death” things, but not the old computer variants with the dark blue screen, but rather the light blue screen ones with the sideways frowny face or something (since my computer is for Windows 8.1).

So when I saw that pop on screen, I immediately decided to turn the volume down on my computer, but then on my speakers, before turning the sound off completely on my speakers,

(If you want better images of this, then just search up “fake fbi virus” on Google, there’s literally hundreds of these, even a blue screen variant of this black one. Be warned that the actual good ones contain annoying watermarks, so if you can remove those, good on you).

So when I saw that blue screen pop up, I immediately hit the red switch on my power bar underneath my desk and flipped it back on again just to reset the computer (since I turned it off improperly last night, where I accidentally hit the sleep button instead of the shut down button and was too impatient and tired from typing to wait for it any longer).

Tea wasn’t really helping with the stress at this moment, so I decided to take a quick dump to buy time. I began to imagine all the types of things and worst-case scenarios that could happen.

Ø  All the journal entries I wrote would be gone, which I could see God doing because I was at my hundredth and maybe God really wanted to get me into the ministry or something, especially since I didn’t go to church today since I’m still recovering from my fundamentalist trauma of it.

Ø  I would have to go through the trouble of having my mom yell at me and get angry at me, in fact her yelling is literally the biggest reason why I’m tired of being attacked, by my mom, by religion, by the media. I’m done.

Luckily, when I came on to this computer, everything was a-okay. Just in case, did a quick scan from Norton and a scan on my Christmas gifts to my sister Was scared that it wouldn’t work, considering it used to be a .txt file lol).

When showing my mom something, I accidentally was forwarded to a Christian forum because of Chrome auto-fill or maybe from my bookmarks. My goal is to clear that now, a quick break

Also meditate for another 15 minutes, no visual stuff to distract me, but went by really quicker.

I really want to capture her screams on video as nostalgia for the pain I went though, but that’s meaningless. I don’t want to remember the bad times, which is why I cover all of my bad stuff with Headers now, I want to remember the good times. I don’t want to live a bad life, I want to live a good life.

[And yet I come back through the depths of Hell to restore these into an HTML format to present to you all, 5 years later]

Because I’m past that PASS, and the PASS is OVER… for good.

Note, I still believe in Christianity, that faith alone in Jesus Christ saves, but that’s not a religion, that’s a relationship. I love the Lord, my God Jesus Christ. I hate religion though, all this fundamental church craziness. It’s crazy, no wonder so few come to Jesus Christ, His fanbase sucks!

I thank only the Lord, because salvation is only His. Thy salvation.

Amen.

Had fun posing for pictures,

Roses are red

My desk is red

My furniture is red

My dog is red

I am red

Dang it, my house is green

Yeah, don’t look at that website though, too much stress about doing good works to get to Heaven and faith + works. It’s faith alone because God said so, “Whoever believes on Him shall not perish but have eternal life”. I believe on Him, thus I have eternal life. The good works are a result of it.